Falling Free

Song Number 1 - Better Side

2010-01-06T20:07:00.004Z

yes...i know, i have turned into one of these 'i write music so please listen and care' types, but this is more of a blog of my progress so i can see it all in a timeline in front of me, so it's for my use more than anything *insert guffaw here*

so aye, if you don't know i have set myself a challenge, it's exactly the same as Josh's challenge to himself and it goes thusly - write a song a month for a year and at the end have a collection of completed songs.

i've decided that this is a good idea because it gives me a chance to do something other than work, now, work is good, i like it, but i need something else to keep me busy and this is the hobby i choose.

so far i have written one full song and recorded most of the guitar parts and hopefully by the end of the week I'll have done all the recording (except vocals, which we will come to in a minute) and i'll be tweaking it as the months go by.

the vocal trouble is one which is causing most grief, first off - i live in a busy flat and so don't want to be wailing my lungs out for all and sundry and secondly i don't have a mic or any money to get one til i have all my debts gone. but as soon as those obstacles are overcome it'll be time to see if i can actually sing...fingers crossed.

i thought about posting a little clip of the song...but until i figure out how to do so i shall leave you with the lyrics. i think the album may become a concept album cuz i have a whole story in my mind that i want to explore but it may end up just being a collection of unmatching songs...we'll see.

the song is called Better Side and here are the lyrics (let me know what you think...or wait until the music is up and then have a wee word with me)

I spend half my life looking at these trees

and half my life making stories of make believe.

It doesn't stand to reason, one day you're in my head.

But you know I'm always right so let me be in your lungs tonight

Suddenly started breathing,

I know you never wanted this modern life,

Suddenly started breathing

and you don't know it's just for tonight.

I wish that I could catch that look in your eyes

feel your skin against my skin and the fear you left behind.

but it's slower now, now you're in the ground,

so much slower now, now you're in the ground.

Then you suddenly started breathing,

Now you know I have a better side,

Suddenly started breathing,

Let me be in your lungs tonight.

End of song! woo, first song...well lyrics, if anyone knows how to load a clip of music onto this then hit me up and i'll whap a good ol' sample up there for you all.

Peace cx

some more ponderings...

2009-10-18T10:54:00.004+01:00

Hiya!

another bedhead for your viewing (dis)pleasure, one day i'll stop doing this and it'll be better for all involved.
some fun things what have happened to me since last time -
i went to see echo and the bunnymen at the apple store with Josh
also nearly took my first call at british gas...but the systems hated our team :(
i shouted at the council (again) and we hopefully, should be getting somewhere...after 4 months of having NO money...bah!

this week shall bring -
work mon-fri 12-8pm - boo hiss boo - but it does mean that when Josh stays we can have a lie in...by 'lie in' i mean til about 9/10am :(
hopefully money from the council so i can pay rent off and not worry about it any more
not much else this week really, just chilling after work and stuff...

on to my rant of the day...
Social Networks.

I had a thought the other day, there's a lot in the papers right now about Facebook and it causing a kind of depression. The main basis for it is that because of our 'always on' culture, we get stressed easier. whether we like it or not, Facebook, Twitter, Myspace even this blog will be updated and we'll be notified straight away, and mobile phones make that so much easier thanks to email and push alerts. so basically - THERE'S NO ESCAPE!!!

i guess it depends on what kind of person you are though, i mean, i go on facebook when i log on my computer (mostly without realising), my phone automatically updates twitter and facebook through apps, i have a bookmarks menu on my phone too so i can see email, forums, facebook etc just by touching the screen. it could get too much. but for me it doesn't.

i don't get stressed if i am away from my computer for a few days, or if my phone has no HSDPA signal (ok sometimes the latter happens, but only if i'm listening to Spotify on the way to work)

twitter, facebook, myspace are all really good ways for people to stay in contact with each other, discover new things and generally have a laugh, artists can use those tools to communicate with fans, building online families of existing fans and catching others in the process...building their brand.

I guess there will be people out there who will get stressed though, and that's a shame, but it's their own fault, no? people need to remember there are other ways of communication besides facebook and twitter...call someone, even send a good old fashioned text!

Just because famous people use the social networks to expand their brand, doesn't mean that we have to do the same to an audience of friends.

thought over.

off to call blockbuster and see if i can rent tomb raider for the ps3...i'm obsessed...ciao! xx

illness

2009-10-10T20:46:00.003+01:00

HOLY DICK ON A TRUMPET!!!

it's been ages since I last posted on here, apologies (i hope no-one has just thought "fuck it, this guy's a lazy ^%$#" and then hacked this...but it seems to be working)

here's a little update on the happenings of me...which may not be interesting, if so, stop reading and go back to some 'alone time', it is what the internet is meant for...anyways...

i've been ill.

i don't know if it's pork flu or just a regular cold but it's fucking awful! i cough so much my ribs hurt and my back has decided to hate me, for good.
and i can't even take a day off work because i'm in training and would have to start the training again, which means less money and un-happy Craig...bad times, i think you'll agree.

it doesn't help as well that this cold is happening right at the start of winter, ok...hang on...i mean, i KNOW winter is starting BECAUSE this cold is here, it's like clockwork.

summer - craig is fine
autumn - still fine
1st day of winter - craig is ill...really ill (this is how you know it's winter)
spring - totally fine.

it's officially winter everyone *hurrah*

yeah, so, winter is shitty, i think we all agree on that one, it's miserable, it's dark, it's cold. and that makes me miserable, dark and cold...really.
i HATE winter, it makes me sad, my feet get wet, my nose runs, i slip and fall, i can't get anyone presents...i want to stay in bed until christmas dinner comes out...then go back under the duvet.

i don't think i have that S.A.D thing, cuz i can be happy during winter, sometimes, but i just think i need more light and stuff, the worst part is working in winter...on the way to work - it's dark, the sun isn't up yet. on the way back from work - it's dark, the sun has been and gone.

fabby.

this winter, however, i have Josh, he says he gets all shitty in winter as well, but we can help each other through (unlike now where all we seem to be doing is helping each other spread our colds on).

i will update properly when i have a proper chance, illness and 9-5 work is a bad combo, but when i can go a whole day without coughing, i will be back and bed head it up...

hope all is well in the world.

ciao xx

First bedhead :D

2009-09-26T12:22:00.003+01:00

New Bedhead!

Jeez, it's been ages since I posted one of these, but here goes, traditionally followed by random snippets of what I've been up to recently.

A couple of pretty big things have happened 1 being me getting a job :) I start on Monday, British Gas...it's going to be good, call centre work, no dress-code, good pay, so yeah I hope it lasts a long time :)

2nd big thing is Amber, a friend from PFWW who I haven't spoken to in...it must be years, but recently we were reunited via Facebook and had the most awesome chat last night, it's really ace because we're totally on the same wavelength about so many things, so that too has made me recently...hopefully we'll meet up some day soon (if I save enough cash...which I will!) and make some music together...citin!

Thanks to all my mates again, and Judith for being there for me through these last few months, when I've got rent all paid and council tax, I'll have a gathering with all of you here for food, drinks and banter as a thank you :) oh and Judith got a job too which we'll celebrate at the same time, you'll all be contacted in due course!

Also, I advise you to listen to Placebo's version of 'Fuck U' by Archive and 'Hardly Wait' by PJ Harvey (Aurtoharp. XD) amazing versions of 2 great originals...but you know me, I'm a sucker for anything Placebo...but check them out.
Also, on the topic of music, give Florence and The Machine a listen, I know people are all hyped about her, to me that tends to make me stay away, but I got a few tracks off the album and it's pretty sweet, check out 'Bird Song' and 'Howl' - my 2 faves. She reminds me a bit of Imogen Heap but a bit more poppy (which can't be a bad thing)

Righto, I'm off to go and clean myself and my room, and probably dance about to Flo and The Mach.

Enjoy the ride

cx

Something just popped into my head...

2009-09-17T02:12:00.002+01:00

The other day I remember thinking something, probably when I was in a bad mood...I may be over dramatizing my life here (there are a lot of people a lot worse off than me, but it IS all relative to be fair) but I just had a thought -

Everyone, at some point in their life, will get totally screwed over by some higher force/being/establishment and those people who don't (or claim not to) are lucky enough to die before it happens.

Now, the reason I am probably stating this is because of my current situation but seriously, the amount of people who "fall through the net", people who end up on the streets with no money and no-one to turn to, people who live on nothing and are still expected to give out something. Yes compared to millions of people I have it easy, but I am not 'millions of people' I am me, you are you, and when shit happens it happens, no matter if you are someone who's homeless and then gets all tangled up in heroin or if you're a student who can't find a job...it's all relative.

Obviously the whole heroin example is a bad one, as in if it happened to you it'd definitely be shit, but what I'm getting at is - bad things happen, all the time, don't feel bad if something happens to you which others may see as 'nothing', if it's bad then it's bad. End of...

Back to the whole getting screwed over thing - When I attempted to apply for Jobseekers allowance earlier in summer I was refused it because I was in full time education, fair enough...I suppose living on £4,000 a year is a do-able thing is it? There are probably thousands of people just begging to be living on that amount a year...it's awful, and when I said, "but the loan only come in from September to May..." the response of the Customer Advisor...
"but it's worked out for a whole year, it's to last a year..."
so what is obviously expected of me, a student with no job (not for lack of trying, let me assure you) is to be able to survive on a student loan just short of £460 a month, which stops in May but I'm expected to be able to survive summer on NOTHING...diddly squat...it's fucking laughable is what it is.

This summer I have had Zero money, and have had much more than Zero expenses, thanks to an understanding flatmate and landlord I am not homeless and I have not been reduced to prostituting myself on the street, I have come close though...

Basically if you're a full time student, eventually you get fucked over by something.
part time student - fucked over
full time worker - fucked over
part time worker - fucked over
homeless - clearly fucked over
parent - fucked over
child - fucked over
pensioner - fucked over
etc etc.

Dead people - no longer getting fucked over...but either they were lucky and never did get totally shat on...or the thing that fucked them over, doubled back over them and stole the last remaining piece of life they had left.

So yeah, if it weren't for my friends, flatmate and boyfriend I'd be totally lying in the middle of the road having just been reversed over by a big truck made of job centres and student loans, but I do have amazing people in my life, and I have a pretty good ability to remain positive and fight my way out of the bleak times, now that's not something that can be made into a comic book, I haven't got good wall climbing abilities or a pvc suit complete with cape (one of those things may be a lie) but it's holding me up just fine.

Oh and I think that being able to write all this down is doing a lot to continue the positive, whatever you read here is an outburst of thought, not always said in the best way but it's a stream of consciousness and it's not always correct, but leave comments and stuff and I'll do my best to back up what I'm chatting about.

Enjoy the ride,

cx

First New Post

2009-09-17T01:56:00.002+01:00

Just testing this new blog I have started...will hopefully do a proper post sometime tomorrow.

Let me know if there's anything wrong with the site or if I should change anything, add pics etc to the background...probably best to start fresh and when I'm not all sleepy.

I hope you've not missed me too much!

cx